Day 22, checking in after the weekend

I haven’t been sharing on here every day. A few days ago my sponsor told me in no uncertain terms that I needed to make it to a meeting per day, and I have been doing that through the phone meetings. And I make a lot more outreach calls than I ever have done. I…

Day 18, gratitude today

Today I feel so grateful. I have so many things to be grateful for… 18 days of recovery. The craving / urge for a cigarette has been nearly removed, I’m feeling much better now. A sponsor who doesn’t take nonsense, and who holds me very much to account about reaching out to other GS’ers and…

Day 16, cravings

Sorry, I got my daycount wrong in previous emails, it’s day 16 today. Thank goodness my abstinence doesn’t depend on my math skills – as long as I can figure out that 4.0 means 4.0, 8.0 means 8.0, etc. then I’m OK. And I am abstinent today: I have weighed my 3 meals off the…

Day 15, planning ahead

I have just had a look at my diary. Lots of things coming up… work travel with overnight stays, a weekend event in Brighton this weekend (with 2 nights’ B&B stay), a family member’s visit with a night’s B&B stay in Bournemouth, a weekend retreat (two nights away), several week-long work events away from home,…

Day 14, taking it seriously

I did a quick calculation today – even at a good rate of loss, it will take me at least 10 months until I am back in a normal-sized body. It truly is just a rented body, given courtesy of GS abstinence. On a different note, I have made a decision to stay away from…

Day 10, slotting into recovery

I’ve posted my first food pictures over on My Greysheet Meals today. I think it’s fair to say that things are a lot easier than I thought, at least thus far.  I said in my previous post that I didn’t feel stable and that is mainly due to the fact that there hasn’t been any…

Day 7, no promises

I don’t feel ready yet to say “no matter what” or “this is the most important thing in my life”. I need to mean these things when I say them, not recite phrases. Can I truly say “no matter what” when in the past 7 days I haven’t actually had any real challenges? Things are…

Day 6 – weekend and supermarket shopping

I’m checking in to say I am still abstinent today, the Greysheet magic is back. I am grateful beyond words… I had barely allowed myself to hope. The weekend’s as good as over and I haven’t eaten. Over the past few months, most weekends were binge times. I could not escape the routine, however well…

Why I left (and am now back)

I’ve been giving the issue of why I left GS in November last year a lot of serious thought. Perhaps some of my thoughts can serve as a warning for anyone who’s in a similar situation. As with everything, there’s not one single reason that made me leave. I certainly didn’t “make a mistake” –…