London Roundup

The London Roundup was for me a time of receiving and of learning. It also made me very homesick for the States – spending time with Americans tends to do that to me. I love and am at ease with Americans, and I’m uncomfortable with Europeans. The Roundup was no different in that respect. The…

Coping with rejection

I just received an email telling me I was rejected for the job I interviewed for this week. Considering that I didn’t really want that job that badly anyway, my own emotional reaction to this is surprisingly painful. It’s not about this job, you see. It’s about being adequate. I’ve never had trouble finding a…

Gratitude, really

Okay, my last email sounded ungrateful. I’m not ungrateful at all, so in keeping with the 10th Step, let me make my amends and “amend” my email with a gratitude list. I’m not as imaginative as a certain other member who regularly posts 100 points of gratitude, but I’m going to set myself a target…

Grateful – yet when will this week end?

Susanne, a gratefully recovering compulsive overeater. I weigh and measure 3 meals a day off the CGS, write them down, and commit them to my sponsor every day without exception. I don’t eat anything uncommitted, no matter what, and because I make this my #1 priority for today, I have a life second to none.…

Why do I eat?

I’m baffled today, and I wonder if anyone has any ESH on this. I’ve been abstinent over 10 months now, and beginning to work the steps. I’m feeling stuck… my task is to find out why I ate. But, could it be that I didn’t need a reason? I don’t ever recall eating “over” something,…

Mourning the Food

Went to an AA meeting yesterday and heard exactly what I needed to hear: that this disease will not go away one day, I will not finish my recovery, and in fact, I have a life worth living NOW anyway. But, my sponsor today used the word “mourn” for the feelings, and I think that’s…

Eating Out & Eating In

So many have given excellent tips on the issue of eating out in public, as well as eating IN, here’s my 2 cents to add (more like $2, because it’s a LONG post!): EATING IN PUBLIC I used to be extremely self-conscious about how other people would react, or how my weighing would affect their…