Freedom from Obsession

Thank you C. for starting this topic, and for your share on it. I was imprisoned by obsession too. Not just food itself, but a swirling maelstrom of related matters: the diet I was trying to keep. The fact that I was starving hungry because I had to fast 20+ hours a day so I…

Grateful moment as I remember

I had such a grateful moment yesterday: we took a dog for a walk that belongs to a lady who can’t go out due to Covid, we had walked that dog a lot during the first lockdown (Spring) but haven’t done that for months. Walking this dog took me right back to the misery I…

Day 91, thank God

I’ll have to keep this brief because I’m in an Internet cafe in Vienna as I write this – but I need to write in to say that I have celebrated 90 days abstinent yesterday. I’m in Austria, visiting the family, and I’ve already faced a few challenges! Most notably, I had to use my…

Day 18, gratitude today

Today I feel so grateful. I have so many things to be grateful for… 18 days of recovery. The craving / urge for a cigarette has been nearly removed, I’m feeling much better now. A sponsor who doesn’t take nonsense, and who holds me very much to account about reaching out to other GS’ers and…

3 Years – anniversary thoughts

I’m Susanne, a compulsive overeater. I’m abstinent today as I weigh my meals off the CGS after I have written them down and committed them to my sponsor, and then I eat those meals and nothing else – no matter what. I make that my #1 priority today. I celebrated 3 years’ abstinence on Thursday.…

One thing

I was thinking – it’s the 1st of October, and I thought about the number 1: if I could only gain one thing from abstinence, what would it be? The ideal weight or peace with food? Thinking about it this way, my vote goes for peace with food. I have been in a thin body…

Writing Group Topic: My feelings are my responsibility

How I feel can’t be determined by others? Whether I’ll ever get to that level of serenity in my recovery, I honestly don’t know. I am lucky in that who I am is giving me the best possible start to work with when it comes to getting people to like me. I’m non-threatening, short, female,…

Abstinence is its own reward

Someone apparently found my blog by typing in a search for “abstinence is its own reward”. I don’t think I’ve ever used those words, but there’s certainly truth in that… Abstinence has enabled me to have a life, quite simply. Because I am abstinent, I’ve been able to focus on living my life – moving…

A life to be lived

I just returned from a week’s vacation in southern Spain. This is the first time I have ever taken a vacation in that sense… normally when I travel it is to visit friends or family, or to attend events (conferences etc.) – but I have never before gone somewhere with no plan, nothing to do…

End of an abstinent year

Looking back, 2008 has really been a good year. Like many others, I have been abstinent throughout the year… through celebrations, through disappointments and pain, happiness and anger. I don’t feel that there was ever a moment of real danger in terms of losing my abstinence this year (which should give some newcomers hope: it…