Unbelievable how topics sometimes coincide with life… certainly this one is incredibly on target for me right now! I am in the hallway, stuck. Not knowing what to do.
The situation is this: I work 50 miles from where I live. I have made a choice to work in charity (non-profit) and accept the low wage that comes with it, because I love my job and I care for the cause. However, with fuel and food prices as they are, I am no longer able to sustain this – a decision has to be made. Either I move closer to work (lose my social network, and have to build new relationships) or I change jobs. Both paths are painful to even consider.
My strategy – if it can be called that – right now is to push all possible doors, see which one opens, and NOT walk through immediately (that’s opportunism) but if/when one opens, to really pray it through and think before I step in. I am going to look at an apartment nearby work today.
It’s the waiting that’s so hard. The uncertainty.
But in the grand scheme, I do remember that this is a luxury problem that I wouldn’t have to face if I weren’t abstinent. So I am grateful for the opportunity for growth, and for knowing one thing: like the next meal coming is an absolute reality I can trust, so is the fact that there will be an end to this limbo and a solution is coming.
In the meantime, I don’t eat, no matter what.