The other day in a private email I made the comment that “thankfully, we don’t do Thanksgiving in this country” – which made my sponsor quite concerned about my gratefulness. I was really joking, but I do take the point and it’s true that giving thanks, being grateful, is the key ingredient for me to remain abstinent. Because, as I said to my sponsee the other day, if I don’t get anything worth having, why do I choose abstinence?
Well the truth is, I gain a LOT of things that are worth having. Abstinence is the bedrock on which I can build a full, enjoyable and useful life. Let’s see if I can summarize my list to 10 major points:
- Mental freedom from obsession
- I know what enough food is
- If I get hungry, I know there’s another (great!) meal coming soon
- I love the food I eat
- My sponsor, who guides me
- My job, which I can concentrate upon because I’m not thinking about food
- My postgrad course, which I can concentrate upon because I’m not thinking about food
- My church family, people who love me
- My healthy body
- That I can focus OUTward and gain the beautiful ability to help someone else
So yes, I am grateful. Beyond words, really.